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Post by emi on Jan 19, 2009 2:28:23 GMT 2
Em rolled her eyes at him and let out a big exhale. She was pretty good at her human charade.She frowned at him about the new born thing."Then, why change her? You could have wait. She could have had a chance at life without you taking it away.'She almost snapped at him. The Tasha change was a sore subject. Em wanted her mortal life-for only a little longer. She liked being a vampire, but that she didnt get a choice pissed her off.Em broke the gaze and looked back out the window."Im sorry''She said quietly
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Post by gabriellaurelle on Jan 19, 2009 2:33:41 GMT 2
Em's words hti deep. The pain he felt was evident in his eyes and all over his face. He was scared to talk for fear his voice would crack, so he nodded acknowledgement at ehr apology. He had wanted to wait longer. He had wanted to give ehr a chance at everything she could only have as a human. But she wanted him more. She wanted him forever, and didnt want to be old when she was changed. So he had done it. He had bitten her, and watched in agony as she was changed.
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Post by emi on Jan 19, 2009 2:39:18 GMT 2
Em shook her head."It's not fair. You never know what you lost-she will.....you didn't have a choice. I had no choice. I lost a year with my babies. I lost so much that I will never get back. Sure, she has you but you weren't going anywhere, and it's not like she would have change physically any time soon.''Em exhaled to calm down, and looked back, seeing Gabe's reaction."Im sorry.....I just know what it feels like.''She said softly"I want Nick fully too-but I wont change him. Not for a while, not even if he begged me to.'She said with a shrug.
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Post by gabriellaurelle on Jan 19, 2009 2:47:15 GMT 2
Gabe looked up at her, the pain anger. He didnt know why, wasnt even thinking of it at the time. But her words made him mad. "You know how it feels? You think you fucking know how it feels to know that the person you love is losing so much, just because of you? You know how it feels to watch as they go through three days of nothing btu screming and passing out? Dont EVER say you know how it feels. You may have had no choice in being changed, but being changed is so much easier then changing the person you love." he said coldly, standing up and turning around. He walked a few feet, then turned back around, finally breaking down. He dropped to his knees as he started to cry.
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Post by emi on Jan 19, 2009 3:07:13 GMT 2
Em whipped around and hissed. How dare he yell at her in her house. In front of her children. If he hadnt of started to cry, Em would have wanted to throw him through the wall.Em rushed over to him and grabbed his shirt."Outside!-NOW!''She growled moved to leave him and walk out the front door to the porch.She whipped around as soon as she got there."I understand your upset about everything. But you have no idea what it is like to go through my world. Im sorry if things are so tough for you, but dont you make your life out to be so much worse then mine. You have you and Tasha. I have the future of my husband, and my children.You have no idea what that is like.And to be hindered by being me-you have no idea. One year was lost, but what about the rest of their lives that I cant have because of what I am.Dont you dare yell at me-I should know what it's like to be stuck and in pain.''She said softly."At least you have her fully now. I have someone that I cannot change. I cant even sleep with-and I Have two little beings that I have to watch my every move around.It's not easy for me either, and I said I was sorry.''She said , dropping her gaze
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Post by gabriellaurelle on Jan 19, 2009 3:11:23 GMT 2
Gabe stood up and followed her outside, forcing back the sobs. as he got outside he listened to her. "I know. Im sorry for blowing up. Its just....." he said softly, then moved to stand at teh edge of the porch, his back to her. He turned around, pain and sadness evident on his face. "Em...I almost killed her. Doing what she asked of me, i almost killed the love of my life! All because of waht i am. And now she's teh same thing, and barely ahs enough control not to kill any humans. Be glad your husband is still human, be glad your children are fragile. Be glad they arent monsters like us."
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Post by emi on Jan 19, 2009 3:21:11 GMT 2
Em shook her head."You aren't monsters. She wasn't ready and neither are you. You should have waited. You should have told her you needed time. So what if she walked out on you-at least you wouldn't have risked her life. You weren't ready, and now your suffering for it and I am glad my family are human. That's my point. I'm what I am and they are human and that leaves me out.But, you.....I'm sorry you are going through this, but-''She broke off, turning her back on him
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Post by gabriellaurelle on Jan 19, 2009 3:26:05 GMT 2
Gabe nodded. "I know. I dont know what its like to watch from a distance as the person i love and my kids watch my funeral. I dont know whats its like to watch as they grieve. But neither do you know what its like to drain the life from your best friend and your love. Just please, dont ever say that again and i wont say it to you." he said softly, stepping forward and hugging her tightly.
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Post by emi on Jan 19, 2009 18:12:14 GMT 2
Em's face was hard, but she hugged him back. She didn't want to make him mad. But,he wouldnt understand and she couldn't push the subject anymore.A angry cry inside told Em her children needed and she turned and dashed back inside to Jonathan's blocks knocked down and baby Emelina glaring at her.Em frowned at her daughter."You know better.''She said, the little girl matching her mother's expression as she was picked up and set in the play pen in the corner."Stay there until you can relax.''Em said, talking mainly to herself and moved to Jonathan merely started his tower over again. Em shook her head and retreated to the couch and sat.
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Post by gabriellaurelle on Jan 19, 2009 18:26:43 GMT 2
Gabe followed her inside and chuckled as he saw the little girls expression at being put in the play pen. "I think her glare scares me more then yours em!" he joked, walking over to sit next to her. He smiled down at the boy. He had a soft spot for kids, although he woudl never admit it.
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Post by emi on Jan 19, 2009 18:40:17 GMT 2
Em smiled at her daughter."I know-though, she is the only one I cant intimidate. Jon will do anything and everything he's asked. Emi is .....''She searched for words and watched as her daughter tossed all the toys from her pen and fell to a crossed armed sit in the middle of the pen, glaring at her mother.".....like that.''She sighed."I'm still getting used to the whole disaplan thing. I dont want to hurt them so it's like......it pisses her off to just sit there for a bit. She'll chill in a bit and fall asleep. Jon, he would start sucking up after a few screaming tears.''She smirked, and lay her head back on the top of the couch.
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Post by gabriellaurelle on Jan 19, 2009 18:46:02 GMT 2
Gabe chuckled. "Ya, for us, its ahrd to think how we can discipline someone without hurting them. I think youve doen good with the playpen. Although for her i think you should make it look more like a jail cell." he said with a laugh. "Cuz shes jsut like her mom, has a nasty little temper."
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Post by emi on Jan 19, 2009 18:50:13 GMT 2
Em's eyes narrowed at him and she elbowed him."She'll get over it. It's the thought that Im punishing her. There's no use repeating it, she knows-which is why she's pissed. She got caught.She'll give in in a little bit.''She smirked, her daughter still glaring at her unwaveringly."You'd think a one year old wouldn't glare like that.''She said, shaking her head in defeat again
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Post by gabriellaurelle on Jan 19, 2009 19:10:13 GMT 2
gabe laughed , then grunted as she elbowed him. "d**n, gonna take some getting used to the fact you can hurt me now." he said with a chuckle. "And she glares like that because shes your kid." he said with a teasing smile, then stepped out of range of her arm.
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Post by Evelyn Jamison on Jan 19, 2009 19:24:04 GMT 2
Em chuckled."Yeah, so watch it. I was just being nice, then''She smirked, her eyes moving back to watch between her children.Jon stood and made a whimper, pointing to the TV. Em laughed and turned it on, flicking through to something kiddy. Baby Emelina made an angry gurgle and grabbed the remaning article on the pen, a blanket, pulled it over her head and lay down.
Em rolled her eyes at Gabe's comment."I do need to spend some more time with nick. We haven't done anything since I've been back.''She said with a sigh, picking Jonathan up when he waddled over to her,smacking her leg and calling her mom. The little boy cuddled into her arms, his eyes fixed on the show. Em melted, and smiled."There is nothign wrong with her. At least she has personality.''She smirked at her daughter, who was peaking at her from under the blanket.
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